Former adult film star Lana Rhoades has opened up about why she wants all of her old scenes to be deleted, shedding light on the darker side of the industry. Rhoades, who started her adult film career in 2016, made the decision to leave the industry shortly after.
Despite being one of the most searched actresses on Pornhub in 2019, she has been vocal about the toll the job took on her mental health.
“I do [regret it],” she said in 2021.
“I honestly tell people, if I could go back, I would give up everything to have my dignity and respect back, and for people not to be able to see me in that way.”
During an interview on Harry Jowsey’s ‘Tap In’ podcast in 2021, Rhoades expressed her desire to erase all of her videos, highlighting the lasting impact of her time in the adult film industry.
A traumatizing experience
In a candid conversation on the Three Girls One Kitchen podcast, she revealed that one particular scene still haunts her, emphasizing the ongoing mental struggles she faces as a result.
“One of the worst… honestly, I feel like I’m in denial sometimes and I can’t accept some of the things that I’ve done,” she said.
“There was one thing that, ya know, I tried talking to a therapist about before something that I had to do for a scene that was really rough for me.
“Basically, this guy had a bowl and he, like, gagged me until I threw up into it and he, like, p***ed in the bowl, and during the scene he asked me to drink it, and I didn’t know how to say no.
“It was one of the most disgusting, foul scenes.”
After a collection of horrifying experiences, Lana Rhoades decided to quit the porn industry for good. In a conversation on the YouTube channel “BFFs with Dave Portnoy and Josh Richards,” she revealed that despite her struggles, leaving the industry has been financially rewarding, as she is now a multi-millionaire.
“The industry I did not get paid s***,” she noted.
“I probably had $100,000 in my bank account when I quit shooting porn and now I’m a multi-millionaire.”